June 26, 2010

I feel like the doll in this box:

Aware but weary. Not completely put together yet, but not too terribly concerned about it, either. Unable to control my own destiny and reliant upon others to my detriment because if they don’t help me I can’t help myself. I just exist.

There are so many things to remember these days…….grounding techniques, coping skills, comfort ideas, leftovers in the refrigerator, grocery list, chores, daily-need-to-get-done list, appointments…………

I need to have all of my lists tattooed on my forehead with the lettering backwards so I can read them in the mirror.

6 Responses to “Lists”

  1. Bee Says:

    “I need to have all of my lists tattooed on my forehead with the lettering backwards so I can read them in the mirror.” I totally know how this feels. I have 8 different calendars/planners to make sure I remember my schedule and I have lists and sticky notes everywhere reminding me of techniques and daily things I need to get done, along with to-do lists of things I don’t do daily. I think finding the right thing(s) to use to help you remember everything is the challenge but once you find it it is a huge blessing. Good luck with everything.


    • roseroars Says:

      Thanks! I do that too. I hate it, though, and the kids don’t understand, so I end up throwing them out and then forgetting all over again.

      Now I want to find a journal that I can clip to my pants, so I can jot things down right away without trying to find one of the four million I have lying around the house.

  2. Lothlorien Says:

    Sending warm thoughts……

  3. castorgirl Says:

    A woman at work had a badge made up when we were going through a re-structuring – “I’m not Superwoman”

    No one is; no matter how strong they are, or how well they appear to be functioning… So go easy on yourself where you can… make lists, prioritise, make remembering things a fun activity with your children…

    I know the feeling of being an empty, half constructed (or is it broken?) doll. Sometimes that’s part of the coping mechanism.

    Sending positive thoughts,

    • roseroars Says:

      Thanks. I made 6 lists yesterday, but someone kept adding and subtracting from them. That made me angry. I think I may just take off alone for a while today.

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