A Big Thing, or you guys are right – respect your alters!

May 29, 2010

Yesterday I remembered a big thing. I relaxed, as Dawn suggested, and asked by name who would like to share something. A younger part did and it wasa big thing. It was horrible and unbelievable and my entire body shouted “It’s true!” like a chorus. When I asked inside why at least a part of it wasn’t shown before they answered as one, “You would never have believed us until now.”

The other parts have never sounded so unified. Many memories and bodily sensations accompanied the big thing, but no emotions or pain. I had to get out of the house after that came through, so I walked one of the dogs, and I felt sooooo relieved. A huge weight was lifted, I know it happened, and I can place it in a certain time period because I know the alter (that seems like such an odd thing to say).

So, I remembered the big thing and the world did not end, the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse did not show up, and New York State is still on the map. Remembering is one thing. Actually processing and working with that entire episode is going to hurt a lot.

I think internal communication will be better for the time being and I’m looking forward to being a better host.


4 Responses to “A Big Thing, or you guys are right – respect your alters!”

  1. Wow! I am so happy for you! Sounds like you did big work and also looked after yourself afterwards. Congrats to you and your parts too! Maybe they just needed to share that?? Hope you continue to feel more relaxed, at least for a while.


    • roseroars Says:

      Thanks! It was big work, and it came through so easily. Now I’m nervous about working with the entire memory, feelings and all. Oh well.

      I do feel better this morning. Thanks so much.

  2. […] trauma. My PTSD symptoms have actually decreased since Thursday. After reading recent posts from Rose Roars, I am thinking that this might be because my alters finally feel like they are being heard. Some of […]

  3. Lothlorien Says:

    Wow! I bet when you relaxed as Dawn suggested, you opened yourself up to listen. I know that was difficult, but it seems like you are feeling better. It is always hard to face our inner truths, but there is also something kind of calming about it. When my system is out of whack, lots of times if I canisten and find out what it is, everything calms for awhile. It is difficult, but at least now you know at least one piece to the puzzle that you can work on when you’re ready to bring you closer to peace and healing. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

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