They’re heeere…

May 24, 2010

There are little to no memories of the first university I attended. I was enrolled for two years and eventually failed, and the only memories I have are of my best friend and myself, relaxing and having a nice time. Even those memories feel scattered and I can’t say what month or year it was.

On Saturday evening a new person came through and she is holding many memories from that time. It’s shocking what I did, what happened, etc., and my mind is reeling. I expect abuse memories and the alters that saved me, but I was not expecting this wild creature. She showed me memories and feelings that I suspected, but I didn’t know where they came from. I was originally going to dismiss her and her memories because she came through while hubby and I were looking online at riding mowers and I just didn’t want to be bothered. It turned out I really didn’t have a choice.

Lothlorien has an insightful post about what is going through my head lately :

http://lothlorien.typepad.com/lothlorien/diagnosis/

After this person came through (with a vengeance) I don’t doubt my diagnosis as strongly as I did. The memories she brought with her filled in some important gaps and explained several things. It was scary and satisfying at the same time.

I hope your week starts out well, moves on into okay, and ends on a nice note.

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8 Responses to “They’re heeere…”

  1. Meredith Says:

    Thank you for adding the link to Lothlorien’s post in yours, today. I go through the Believer’s Trust Walk, too. It’s all part of the dance.

    • roseroars Says:

      “Believer’s Trust Walk”, eh? Can we get some sponsors, raise some money, and go shopping? I know what you meant…..

      Lothlorien’s site has a different perspective and I’m glad she found me.

  2. Lothlorien Says:

    I hope the memories you are being shown comes in small doses. Thanks for the link to my site. I just posted one on Recovered Memories today. It is a post from my former blog (not actually written recently).

    I am glad I found your blog as well. I like reading your posts.

    Take care,
    Lothlorien

    • roseroars Says:

      I guess they are in small doses, but the information and the emotions associated with them I am not used to. I’m honestly reeling, crying, and dumbfounded. I am not comfortable with strong emotions, either.

      Thank you!

    • roseroars Says:

      Oh, just new people. They are coming out of the woodwork since I wrote this post. Besides that, I accepted a major memory last week and it’s getting worse. Not worse, just very busy. Some have no names, some pop up and then disappear, some are just memory fragments. I think I’m dealing with them better, though,

      • castorgirl Says:

        oops… I was actually meaning who is good with handling strong emotions. That’ll learn me for being less than obvious as to what I’m going on about 🙂

        I’m glad you’re getting better at working with it all though…


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